A walk

Sooner or later

I am gonna explode

It’s getting harder

To suppress that much load

All I want

Is just a walk

While walking down the street

I just want to talk

A walk to talk

A walk to share

A walk to feel good

A walk to make you aware

A walk to listen

A walk to think

A walk to tell

What all we can’t ink

A walk to feel

A walk to feel free

A walk along the road

A walk under the trees

A walk to fight

A walk to be quiet

A walk to make up

A walk to make everything right

A halt to sit

A halt to eat

Then back to the walk

With an ice cream to make it complete

A walk to see

A walk to realize

The small lights in night

Are unselfish act of stars and fire flies

A walk to feel good

A walk to feel right

A walk to make sure

That everything is gonna be alright

Sooner or later

I am gonna explode

It’s getting harder

To suppress that much load

It feels so good

A dream shatters

It shatters with a loud sound.

That sound almost makes me deaf

But it isn’t audible around.

It’s an iterative action

With the cycle of few days and nights.

Because then it’s back on my mind

This time with deeper insights.

I convince myself that I am strong

I work hard to disperse my foci.

But suddenly she pings

And I am not ‘I’.

I lose all control

And some power drives me.

I shouldn’t say yes

But as I said some power drives me.

I always want to make her happy

Don't wanna see her crying.

Every time I see her

It feels like I am flying.

I don’t know if anything is wrong with me

But it still feels so right.

Whenever she smiles

Even a dull seems bright.

Bad seems so good

Two (2) seems zed (Z).

It’s a reaction

Of over happiness in my head.

This life plays mystically

And it’s not in my hand.

It’s not fucking handy

Harder I try, I lose all sand.

I convince myself that I am strong

I work hard to disperse my foci.

But suddenly she pings

And I am not ‘I’. 

Whatever I say

Whatever I do,

But it feels so good

When I think of you.

Colours of Face!!!

PS- I painted this!!!

Life...

I had a dream

Another dream of her

Might be just another effect

Effect of falling asleep while thinking of her

But it was a dream

One more dream of my life

It’s bloody my life

So not in my hands and I can’t bribe

But it’s the life

Not just another book

So have to finish the current page

Before having a further look

Every next chapter

Is even more interesting

Every previous chapter

Helps in learning

Sometime it seems wrong

But it is right

It has all the turns

Dull and bright

It has all the colours

Standing in a queue

Sometimes its happiness of yellow

And sometimes sadness of blue

It kisses

It bites

But it’s the life

So it has all the rights

It kicks hard

And sometime even harder

Then provides time

To heal it faster

It chokes

Chokes almost to death

Then provides an oxygen mask

To have a deep breath

It’s the roller coaster

It’s the joyride

So undoubtedly

It’s the best ride

It is the life

It has all the fun

It has all the powers

Because it has its own sun

It’s the journey

With no travel guide

We have to make it special

Because it’s a wonderful ride

Its All About Happiness...

We like

We hate

We argue

We debate

Either I do for me or for you

I try my best, more or less

But every time I realize

It’s all about happiness

I cried

And I cried again

Then I realized

Crying shouldn’t be in my domain

I was crest fallen

And I don’t know why

Then I realized

There is always a space for another try

I tried being cynical

And tried living in reclusion

Then I realized

They are problems not the solutions

It’s not about money

It’s not about pain

But I should realize

It’s just about playing my fair game

Everyone ran

But I stood in the rain

Then I realized

It’s far more than just a rain

                                                                            

Its neither stupidity

Nor a dirty game

To make someone happy

Sometimes one has to act like lame

Either I do for me or for you

I try my best, more or less

But every time I realize

It’s all about happiness

I Will Miss...

Lets have some fun,

Before it gets too late.

Coz sooner or later,

We would be at our office gate.

We are trying too hard,

Just trying to grow fast.

As quickly we grow,

Short the fun last.

I will miss my school,

Miss my bag, miss my bench.

I will miss the rain,

Miss my love of getting drenched.

I will miss my college,

Miss my friend’s car.

I will miss my school bus,

It was always just few steps far.

I will miss my family,

Miss my friends, miss few stars.

I will miss the overloaded cars.

I will miss the boredom,

Miss all rides, which I took alone.

I will miss the freedom,

And will our virtual throne.

I will miss the circuits,

Miss the wires, miss the tools.

I will miss the games,

Miss the frames, miss the pool.

I will miss him,

Miss her, miss them all.

I will miss the text,

Miss the missed, miss the late night call.

I will miss the time we spent,

Miss your company, miss our cold war.

I will miss many things,

Particularly the word “yaar”.

So lets have fun,

Lets make some noise.

Coz sooner,

We won’t have this choice.

                                                                                                                          

Its Never Gonna Fade Away...My Memory...

It turns blues to rainbows

Rainbows to blues

How it works

I don't have clues

It is from past

But will always remain crystal clear

It makes my eyes wet

Sometimes with joy, sometimes with tear

I am happy

Because it never gonna fade

No matter how I live

And under whatever shade

In this long journey

My lucky color might get fade

But I am sure

it will always be there as an aid.

It is from time

The time I had

Some was good

Some was not that bad

Some loved and many hated

The deeds I used to do

But I am happy

Because at least I tried to walk in my own shoe

On the hot summer afternoon

It can bring the rain

No matter how old it is

It can do that again and again

It is about day

It’s about night

It’s about decisions

Some of them were good some were not that right

It’s about the tales

It’s about the sprite

I still love truffle

Especially when I experience some fading light

It’s my memory

With many why

It’s never gonna fade

It’s never gonna die

Fulfilling my wishes,following my dreams...

Fulfilling my wishes,

Following my dreams.

That is the way,

I wanna flow in this stream.

The stream is of life,

Under the sun’s heat.

I am not gonna be a passenger,

I am gonna be on the driver seat.

I don’t wanna get drunk,

But still I wanna get high.

In the heat of deserts,

I want a rainy sky.

Doing what I love,

Is all what I want.

I want my life script,

Not to be in single font.

I wish for your smile,

I dream for that.

I am gonna work hard,

I won’t let them fall flat.

I wish to get understood,

I dream it is done.

Then I open my eyes,

Everything gets converted to none.

My eyes might get wet,

But I won’t like to cry.

In the wet rain,

I won’t like to be left dry.

I don’t wanna follow footsteps,

I wanna imprint mine.

I am gonna force my destiny,

To get me some sunshine.

I perform all day,

What I plan in night.

Sometime I don’t wanna differentiate,

Between practical and right.

I wish to dream,

I dream my wish.

In this big sea,

I won’t be just another fish.

Back to the childhood

Back to the childhood

Back to the fun

When only weapon

Used to be a plastic gun

Back to the time

When we used to play

when our only wish

Was a toy on coming birthday

Back to the garden

Where we used to play

When sky was an umbrella

Where stars and moon stay

Back to the days

When one’s shoulder was a horse ride

When broken teeth was the only thing

Which we used to hide

Back to the days

Back to the times

When only songs

Were nursery rhymes

When television was a box

Which was meant only for cartoons

When our only idol

Were the looney tunes

When we were superhero

With all the natural powers

All those power used to remain

Till we finish the shower

When each classmate

Used to be our friend

Pencil was the stuff

Which we used to lend

When all the dreams

Had fairies and stars

Only expenses were of

Ice cream and chocolate bars

When pants were half

But the heart was full

When only mischief

Was a push or pull

Those were the days

Full of life

They can make us smile now

Within a count of five

I Am Alive

At this part of my life,

I am feeling alive.

Don’t stop me now,

Now I am living a life.

I am flying high,

Denying the gravity.

I am gonna cross the blue umbrella,

And will meet the almighty.

I am not going to stop,

Once I start to run.

Not even if,

You chase me with a gun.

I am going to have a good time,

And set myself free.

I am chilling,

Even at thousand degree.

I am gonna pass all sky,

And will shine bright.

I am gonna run as fast as I can,

And will beat the speed of light.

I am gonna utilize energy,

Using e=mc square.

In the game of life,

I opted dare.

I am gonna live my life,

And will live it clean.

May be for that,

Sometimes I am gonna look like mean.

I will shoot like a rocket,

And will travel to mars.

In the pursuit of happiness,

I am gonna break all bars.

I am gonna get happiness,

All sadness gonna explode.

Like it used to be,

In the tale of princess and toad.

If you wanna join,

Just give me a call.

This time I am alive,

And not stopping at all.

I

I am the one,

Who can have fun.

With life on stake,

On the point of a gun.

People do ditch me,

And I do miss.

But I can enjoy,

With a life like this.

I am a liar,

I can put a fake smile on my face.

If it make someone smile,

Then I can do it again and again with grace.

I am broke,

With a broken heart.

But I don’t care,

Because there are many start.

I am the one,

Without coordination in dance.

But for little happiness,

I can beg for a second chance.

I do agree,

Sometimes I hurt you.

But that was not intentionally,

So I beg an apology to you.

For my friend,

After losing 8.5 out of nine.

I can still stand and say,

That I am totally fine.

I don’t care,

And I don’t give a damn about all.

But I do care for those,

For whom I can fall.

I am the one,

Who can get into a fight.

It should be for friend,

No matter its day or night.

I am the one,

Who is sometime rude.

Because I get pissed off,

With fake miss and dude.

I get in trouble,

And I do fight.

But don’t you think that,

Fight for fun with a friend is alright.

I am the one,

You would sometimes find me weird.

I am different from your all other friends,

And for that I am not feared.

I was never bad,

But you perceived it wrong.

It hurts a lot,

But I am still trying to be strong.

If I get a chance,

Then I would show you.

That there are no ill feelings,

In what all I do.

No matter how hard it gets,

But I will still find reason,

For little and sweet happiness,

In each and every season.

Looking up

God, I am looking up,

Don’t let me down.

Please get some time,

And come to my town.

We will sit,

And have some chat.

Not about politics,

Because I don’t like that.

If you would like,

Then we will go on a walk.

Because all I need,

Is a need to talk.

I have so many questions,

With no question numbered last.

Because my question arises another question,

So there is no word as avast.

If you come down,

And try to find me out.

I would be the one,

 Sitting alone in the crowd.

I would be the one,

Who might be avoiding the fakes.

Sitting in the corner,

Enjoying my truffle cake.

I wanna know about good,

I wanna know about bad.

I wanna know many reasons,

Especially one behind why one feels sad.

Why the world is like this only,

Why not like that.

The world we used to dream,

When our only love was our cricket bat.

I am sure it’s not the same,

As u wanna make it.

So there is a need of inspection,

Then taking action might make it.

I am looking up,

And I am calling you down.

Because I am fed up,

Fed up with all these fake clowns.

Mistakes

One day I might wake up,

And will find angels by my side.

They would ask me to fly up,

And will say they are here for my ride.

I would be begging them,

To spare me one more day.

May be they would do that,

And will give me one day to say.

But one day won’t be enough,

Because I would know what all I did.

Then I would realize,

How many times I did.

But I don’t wanna beg,

I want to do that all now.

May be that’s why I am here,

Sitting and finding to do it how.

I would like to die in peace,

With my mind and my heart at rest.

I want when I would die,

People will say I did my best.

I know I do mistakes,

And so many already have been done.

People say its human who do mistakes,

And I might be among worse human one.

Its me who committed them,

And I know that I can’t undo.

Forgiveness is all the need,

And it is all up to you.

I don’t wanna do it in future,

But  I know that I might do.

So I am apologizing before,

To all of you.

I am sorry if I hurt you ever,

But seriously I never had intensions to do.

And still in my hard time,

By my side I will expect you.

Because I am among those humans,

And that is the fate.

Its better I realize it now,

Instead of realizing it late.

They Need A Life...

We get pocket money,

they get wage.

We can ask for more,

but they have to manage.

We watch movies,

and eating out is what we like.

They have to search food,

or they have to live like on hunger strike.

When we went to playway,

they started work.

We raise our status,

by calling them jerk.

People love wine,

people drink beer

What all they got,

are just their tear.

We select clothes,

according to day.

They wear same,

on each and every day.

People eat sweets,

people like honey.

They cant eat,

coz they don't have money.

What do they did,

whats thier faults?

Why they have to live a life,

with so many halts?

I don't know,

Its who to blame.

But they are the prey,

In this damn game.

They born as poor,

Its not there flaw.

Then why are they treated,

with a different law?

May be its the life,

Which play all game.

For some its joy,

for them its a flame.

We complain our life is boring,

and we live like a tame.

Everyday they wake up,

And the things they do daily are the same.

They need a life,

Its more than a pray

that what all we can doo.

But still I pray,

They get a life too.

If not a very high one,

Then atleast like we all do.

Junior School Days- Lovely Days

Running with the open lace,
No worry of getting lost in any maze.


Running as fast as one can,
On losing the balance crashing in sand.
If parents are watching then start crying,
But if friends are watching then we are fine.


Doing the homework on the last day,
That to in the bus on the way.


No matter what teachers say,
Playing hard in the recess was must for a day.


Getting punished and standing on seat,
Still pretending that it is like a treat.


Chatting and doing crazy stuff in classroom,
Gathering friends for going to restroom.


Pulling the dress of friend sitting next,
Then pretending like reading book's text.


Complaining teacher that friend is creating mess,
Then sharing lunch with same friend in the recess.


On the last bell, running hard without leaving any trail,
Running like just got freedom from the jail.


Going back with dirty dress,
Then justifying that it wasn't me who created mess.


While going back looking out from windshield,
Then walking like we are coming from battlefield.


Treating the bag as a load,
Dragging the water bottle all the way on the road.


Thinking and life was so positive with no corners as darks,
That after attempting half exams we used to expect full marks.


No tension of latest trends,
Day start with friends and end with friends.


No worry of maintaining relationship,
The only thing was the friendship.


Today I don't know how to say,
But I miss those days very much even today.

My Best Teacher- "My Life"

Whenever I tried to fly very high,
In this beautiful blue sky.
It pulled me down,
And put me back in the real town.


Sometimes I used to cry,
But still I used to try.
I try again and again to climb the wall,
Because my life teaches me all.


Sometimes no matter how fairly you play,
There would be someone ready to make you slay.
But still play fair everyday,
That’s what my life has to say.


It teach me how to look glad,
When from inside you are really sad.
Because its not all about me,
Its about people who are more valuable than myself for me.


Never ever try to give up,
Just go and get some reasons to live up.
Don’t live like shaking twigs,
My life teaches me how to live big.


People come close and become my friends,
They move with me all around.
Then suddenly they left me and make it end,
My head spins like a merry go round.
Because they never make it clear,
How I became that much hatred from a dear.
I was left out with my tears,
Still my life teaches me to be a dear.


I got the best teacher,
But I think I am not a good creature.
I think as a student I am not up to the mark,
Because sometimes I finds myself alone in the dark.

To my BEST FRIEND

I love your cute smile on your beautiful face,
For that I can run any race.
It makes me stand,
Even when there is no helping hand.
Its makes the life easy,
When all seems busy.
No matter life runs at which speed,
Its your smile what all I need.


You have such a sweet beautiful heart,
Which can make a defeated to begin with a new start.


I love that wonderful grace,
Which is always there on your pretty face.
For that I can cross any maze,
Even if I would have entangled lace.


You have a unique special glow,
In hard time which makes me go.


It's all your beautiful talks,
Which on tougher paths make me walk.


Life is like a theatre,
GOD and oneself are it's creator.
One should decide oneself what to play,
No matter what others have to say.


Never loose any hope,
Because there is no happiness on negative slope.
It's you who give me and others hope,
So please always be on positive slope.


I would be there to hold your hand,
Whenever you will afraid to stand.
When I would be afraid to stand,
Please be there to hold my hand.

WHY ?

Why there are dreams?
Which led to screams.

I just want some small joyfulness,
To make a complete happiness.

I am just walking alone,
May be because to others I am unknown.

I m learning to love abuse,
Because I just never wanna loose.

Please help me oh lord,
I at least once wanna meet the god.

Because the no. of questions I wanna ask,
Is a lot more than my wishes and task.

Why do people get amuse,
To see me confuse.

Why sometimes I feel alone in crowd?
Why others can’t see even when I cry out loud?

I love happy endings a lot,
Then Why it’s not there in my life's every plot?

Why one’s look does matter?
To being get loved better.

Why can we dream of those things?
Which are very very far from the real happenings.

Why what one deserves is opposite to his desires?
Why the no. of truthful is very less than liars?

Why with the simple handshakes,
We can’t figure out the fakes?

Why people hurt us especially when we are in pain?
By doing this what they gain?

Why some things remain unspoken?
Why don’t other understand what was unspoken?

Why do many people hate after seeing only the exterior?
Even when they know there is a good heart in the interior.

Why sometimes one never gets a chance to make himself clear?
Why without knowing the reason one has to shed the tear?

Why sometimes what we do to give happiness,
Results in loss of our own happiness.

Why sometimes things done to make someone glad,
Results opposite and make her sad.

Why sometimes people don’t trust their friends,
Why do people leave their real friends?

Why do people start new relation creations?
If they can’t continue the relations.

Why do people leave old friends?
Just for the new friends and trends.

Why some people love to gain from someone's pain?
Why some people never feel shame?

God never differentiate,
Then Why the hell among the people there is a lot of hate?

All humans are the same,
Then Why there are religion, colour and caste game?

The no. of these Why are very high,
Even more than the stars in the sky.

I just wanna meet the almighty one,
Because I just wanna get my few things done.

Here I Am

Here I am,
Once again with a slam.
Once again loner,
Once again as a loser.


Here I am,
Once again as a wreck,
With a suffocated neck,
May be because that is what I deserved,
Or may be I am with my feelings is little bit preserved.


Here I am,
Once again thrown,
Once again blown,
Once again drown,
Just like an unknown.


Here I am,
Once again fed up,
With the comment-“grow up”,
I should grow up for what?
Just to say my friends-“hi, what’s your name? Sorry I forgot…”


Here I am,
Once again sad,
Once again mad,
May be because I am very bad.


Here I am,
With lots of questions,
Because of so many reasons,
Don’t know what to do,
For GOD’s reply standing in a queue.


Here I am,
Without saying anything,
But feeling everything.
With little bit crying,
And trying to be fine.


Here I am,
Once again loner,
Once again as a loser,
Here I am.


Here I am,
Wanna meet GOD to ask why,
This time wanna say why me,
Because this time I don’t wanna say try me.